♥ma.chicka.girl♥ asked:


I know I’ve asked a lot of questions like these before but it’s beginning to drive me insane. Basically I’m going to tell you the story and hopefully you can help:
I’ve always loved children (I have six younger siblings, volunteer in a birthing center, teach Sunday school, nursery duty, and babysit), but recently I’ve been really wanting a child. I’m still a teenager, but ‘mature’ for my age (people have guessed me to be four years older than I really am because of my age), and know a lot of what I want out of life. One of those things, is obviously, a child. I would rather sooner than later but because I’m only a teenager I’m trying to hold it off. I have other hobbies, other than being with children, such as writing, baking, crocheting (baby blankets unfortunately), volunteering at my local hospital’s birthing center, and a few other things. I don’t have a whole lot of friends, but that’s because I’m ahead a grade, home schooled, and not too many people think I’m normal ha ha. Anyways, I was thinking today, and I know that I want to be a writer (I’m working on a few different novels and trying to get published currently), and that I was kids (once again; obviously) but the thing is; I’m writing right now. I don’t have to wait to be an ‘adult’ like I do for a child. I know I’m not like other teenagers, I don’t have sex, would rather spend my evening at home writing and making blankets then out at a football game, and I honestly love going to church and being with the people there, but still when I think to it, I would just be over-joyed to have a child. I just love being with children and babies so much that having one of my own would be like writing a story–I know not as easy (I’ve been through the night screaming, puke cleaning up, diaper changing, feedings, et cetera) but I think I’d get the same thrill of taking care of a child that I get when I’m writing. I have a lot of siblings (ten) and sometimes I feel like my parents want to control me, so I kind of feel like this is an act of rebellion, but I don’t think it is I think I honestly just want a child. Most people say don’t do it, you’re throwing your life away, but like I said: I have a few friends that I actually ever hang out with, and would rather spend my evenings at home than out at a football or basketball game. I know I’m probably being stupid, but I just wanted your overall opinion. I’m not going to try and get pregnant, I don’t believe in *** before marriage, but I just don’t want to feel like this anymore. I’m around babies and children as much as I can to try and satisfy myself but it just never goes away and it’s starting to make me depressed. I can’t talk to a therapist or my parents about it, because my parents would never understand, and we probably can’t afford a therapist… what should I do? I don’t like feeling so depressed, and unfortunately, I’ve started to even write stories about young mothers making their ways, and imagining myself as one. I know; it’s all stupid, but does anyone have an advice other than telling me not to do it? Because obviously I can’t– I’m single, don’t believe in *** before marriage, and don’t even have my license yet, and I keep telling myself that I can wait, but, well you know what I said Thanks for all of the help, I really appreciate it(:
P.s. Before anyone says anything about money, I know the costs of raising a child! I’m super savvy too, just like my mama taught me, and could make it through(: